I've never thought Valentine's Day was a big deal. It's too commercial, the roses are too expensive, the now cliche heart shaped box of chocolates (bad for my diabetes) and all the hoopla...
Why would I want to wait three hours for a table at a restaurant that I could normally be seated in 15 minutes??
Nope, never cared much for it.
But my wife does.
This is our first Valentine's Day as a married couple. We've both been excited this week because we get to spend a three day weekend together...the first weekend alone since our honeymoon.
We've both been extra lovey dovey lately...but I dropped the ball.
Miscommunication can quickly shift the energy of a situation.
Tomorrow starts our weekend alone, and the last time we will see each other for at least two months...and we had a fight.
I did not understand the importance of this particular day to my beloved. This day. Not the weekend closest to this day, but this day itself.
There are a lot of changes going on at work, and I have been busy with a few surprises for our weekend together...and my lovey dovey energy kind of dropped off today. Looking forward to the weekend, I forgot about today. I didn't REALLY forget...but my acknowledgement of this day was not quite what my wife would have liked.
It may sound like my wife is high maintenance...she is.
I'm high maintenance too...we both own it.
To be fair, she did not see the meme of Obi-Wan that read "You've got the droids I'm looking for" that I reported on Facebook this morning.
I know...total guy version of marking the day.
She acknowledges my romantic side as well...I am a poet, and thoughtful gift giver...
I just don't dig Valentine's Day the way she does...but that's where I erred.
It's like making the bed in the morning. She likes a nicely made bed and I think it's a waste of time...but on those rare days she asks me to make the bed, I do it... because I love her.
If my transferable skills were serving me today, I would have made a bigger deal out of today, no matter what surprises await her this weekend... because I love her.
So my beloved, if you happen to read this before you sleep tonight, or even before you catch that early flight to come spend the weekend with me, please accept this as an apology. What's important to you is important to me, and I'm sorry I forgot that.
I can't wait to hold you close and whisper in your ear just how much I love you.
Sweet dreams mi corazon.